Do what???!!


Have you ever……

Been carrying on a conversation and not hear a thing they say!

Start something and forget what you were doing?

Be in the middle of a thought and POOF!!! it just disappears?

Had so many thoughts that they just jumble together?

Walk into a room and wonder why?

You are NOT alone!! You are NOT crazy!! You are NOT going insane!

I hate when this happens because it makes me feel ignorant at times. I have good days and bad days. I have learned to write EVERYTHING down. The biggest lie you can tell yourself is that you will remember something.

There are a few major things that can cause memory loss.

  1. Lack of Quality sleep
  2. Multi-Tasking
  3. Medications
  4. Stress
  5. Depression
  6. Vitamin Deficiencies
  7. Medical Problems

Keep Forgetting Things: When You Should Be Concerned

If memory problems are new to you or they’re getting worse, it’s a sign you need to see your doctor. If the problem isn’t getting worse, make sure it’s not your medications. Then focus on getting seven to eight hours of uninterrupted sleep.

Watch your diet too if you’re forgetting things lately. Foods that are good for your brain include walnuts, pistachios, and blueberries.

Lastly, don’t underestimate the power of exercise. Research shows aerobic exercise helps your brain forge new connections and even make new nerve cells. Make sure you’re getting at least 30 minutes of aerobic exercise three or four days a week.

Brain Healthy Habits:

  • Exercise (especially aerobic exercise)
  • Mediterranean diet (lots of plants)
  • 7+ hours of sleep nightly
  • Learn a second language or a new skill
  • Limit alcohol
  • Don’t smoke
  • Reduce the amount of sugar in your diet
  • Protect your head from injury
  • Check your hearing. Hearing loss can worsen brain function
  • Get outside in nature more. Give your brain a rest.

Hang in there and hope this helps!




I’m gutted but NO LESS of a woman

I have heard over and over of women and even men making the statement of how much less they are after a hysterectomy. That’s a load of horse shit! Just because you have a hysterectomy doesn’t make you any less of a woman. Don’t ever allow anyone to disrespect you by saying it either.

I understand how devastating it can be for some women because they have not been allowed to experience pregnancy, childbirth etc. My heart goes out to these women as I know the heartache it can cause. Just keep in mind that God has some plans for you. We might not understand exactly what till later in life when we can look back on it. He may be using your experience to help another survive the same ordeal or he may be using it to open another door that we may have otherwise avoided.  Only God knows why certain things take place in our lives.

I was fortunate enough to be blessed with two beautiful girls. When the girls where around the ages of 2 and 10, I met the man I was meant to spend life with. He is truly my soulmate. We started trying for a child of our own in 2011. We had some close calls and almost positive we had a miscarriage. It was depressing every time I got pregnancy symptoms and a negative test. It just wasn’t meant to be for us.

The doctor diagnosed me with Pelvic Congestive Syndrome in April 2018, following that I began my research. I discovered in layman’s terms what PCS was or is. PCS is where your ovaries don’t flush out like they are supposed to and become stagnate. They also cause pain in your legs from blood not flowing properly. I have had leg issues for years and contributed it to my fibro. The more I have studied PCS the more I am convinced that it is the reason that we weren’t able to have a baby and a lot of the symptoms I put off as Fibro.

On May 22, 2018 at St. Michael’s Hospital I was taken into a small room with my husband and oldest daughter as they prepared me for surgery. I was getting ready for a MAJOR surgery and I wasn’t the least bit nervous.  I knew I had this and had an army of pray warriors praying for me. I remember being wheeled into the surgery room and thinking “it’s finally time!”, I wasn’t nervous and it never crossed my mind that something could go wrong. I was ready to get on the road to recovery so I could feel better again.

I am not going to lie, when I woke up I was in a lot of pain but I knew it was just temporary. The doctor said everything went great so now all I have to do is heal! I am not one to have others wait on me and it’s hard not to just jump up and do what needs to be done. In order for me to heal I am having to allow my family to care for me and help me with my needs. The important thing  to remember when healing from something like a major surgery is not to rush it.

I can’t wait till I am back and better than ever. I know even though I am missing some parts that I am no less of the woman I was when I still had them!



I’m getting gutted


Today is the LAST DAY for my uterus and I !!! I am breaking up with my uterus, evicting it, and getting gutted! Bon Voyage – I appreciate my two beautiful girls but I am done with all the heartache and pain you have caused me over the last several years. I am thrilled that I can cancel my monthly visits from Aunt Flo. Another bonus is no more tampons!

For any woman about to go through this experience or for any woman that already has, its just another step in our lives that we can share together as women! We are strong…we are invincible…….we are WOMAN!!
So I say goodbye to cramps…..goodbye to achy body parts….goodbye to headaches…..goodbye to tampons and big bulky pads and most of all…..goodbye to Granny Panties!!!
I’m a whole new woman now!!!

Listen to your body

Since having been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in 2010 I have discovered so many things including that each flareup brings a new symptom. We must learn to listen to our bodies and know it well enough to know if it’s another fibro symptom or something else.

The last few years have been up and down for me. Over the last few months I have gotten worse in my pain level. I started feeling like something wasn’t quite right. I finally went to the dr and started having tests run.

I have quickly learned that any type of infection throws my fibro into a tailspin. Fibro also intensifies pain.  I have gotten so bad that I couldn’t even walk upright because of the pain levels.  The dr put me on some antibiotics and it helped for a short time and then I was back to hurting. He tried more antibiotics and this time it didn’t work so then he decided to put me in the hospital for three days and run antibiotics through me on an IV.  I feel like it just made me bottom out and get worse.

After a lot of deliberating the dr came back stating I had what they called Pelvic Congestive Syndrome. Now that we know what I have it has been decided that everything must go. This is taking place May 22.

In the mean time, I am spending my days holding down the couch until surgery.  Since I am so limited to what I can do I am learning how to blog and hopefully write a few ebooks.


Chronic pain


1. People with chronic pain seem unreliable (we can’t count on ourselves). When feeling better we promise things (and mean it); when in serious pain, we may not even show up.

2. An action or situation may result in pain several hours later, or even the next day. Delayed pain is confusing to people who have never experienced it.

3. Pain can inhibit listening
and other communication skills. It’s like having someone shouting at you, or trying to talk with a fire alarm going off in the room. The effect of pain on the mind can seem like attention deficit disorder. So you may have to repeat a request, or write things down for a person with chronic pain. Don’t take it personally, or think that they are stupid.

4. The senses can overload while in pain. For example, noises that wouldn’t normally bother you, seem too much.

5. Patience may seem short. We can’t wait in a long line; can’t wait for a long drawn out conversation.

6. Don’t always ask “how are you” unless you are genuinely prepared to listen it just points attention inward.

7. Pain can sometimes trigger psychological disabilities (usually very temporary). When in pain, a small task, like hanging out the laundry, can seem like a huge wall, too high to climb over. An hour later the same job may be quite OK. It is sane to be depressed occasionally when you hurt.

8. Pain can come on fairly quickly and unexpectedly. Pain sometimes abates after a short rest. Chronic pain people appear to arrive and fade unpredictably to others.

9. Knowing where a refuge is, such as a couch, a bed, or comfortable chair, is as important as knowing where a bathroom is. A visit is much more enjoyable if the chronic pain person knows there is a refuge if needed. A person with chronic pain may not want to go anywhere that has no refuge ( place to sit or lie down).

10. Small acts of kindness can seem like huge acts of mercy to a person in pain. Your offer of a pillow or a cup of tea can be a really big thing to a person who is feeling temporarily helpless in the face of encroaching pain.

11. Not all pain is easy to locate or describe. Sometimes there is a body-wide feeling of discomfort, with hard to describe pains in the entire back, or in both legs, but not in one particular spot you can point to. Our vocabulary for pain is very limited, compared to the body’s ability to feel varieties of discomfort.

12. We may not have a good “reason” for the pain. Medical science is still limited in its understanding of pain. Many people have pain that is not yet classified by doctors as an officially recognized “disease”. That does not reduce the pain, – it only reduces our ability to give it a label, and to have you believe us.

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Find out who your real friends are

Fibro can make you feel like a bumbling idiot at times but please know you aren’t!

I used to be the one that everyone went to when they needed something remembered – not anymore.

I used to never say no when I was asked for help. It has been a transition for me to start saying no. I have to think of myself first. My time is precious and I never know when I might feel good.

I recently agreed to put on a clinic and when it came the day of I felt horrible but I couldn’t rest because I had committed my time to the kids involved. So I pushed myself once again.

I have slowly been saying no and resigning from volunteer positions etc because I no longer have the time or energy. Yes, there are those that will think you are being stuck up and don’t care but they don’t understand it’s because you do. You can’t give 100% when you never know what each day brings.

It’s not easy to put yourself first but it’s necessary when you are battling an invisible disease. You will want to scream, feel depressed, and wonder why me? It is a roller coaster ride of emotions and feelings.

With any chronic illness you have to think of yourself first. If you don’t take care of yourself than who will?

It’s hard enough for us that are battling it to understand it completely so you can only imagine how our friends and family feel. I’m blessed with a family that does try to understand. I have lost so called friends because of it but I guess that means they were never true friends.

Keep hanging in there! You are stronger than it is! You are a warrior! There are people that DO understand you and don’t mind letting you vent.



I know that reducing stress is next to impossible. However you might be able to pamper yourself in little ways. I, myself, have started enjoying an hot cup of tea in the evenings after supper. Sometimes, I slip one in a bit earlier in the day. I know that when you have young children in the home time to yourself is probably non-existent. However, I challenge you to ponder on ways to treat yourself even as you spend time caring for others. Just something to think about. Hope your evening is a quiet one, or at least half-way quiet. Gentle Hugs and prayers



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